Humbled

I never think about stuff like awards or recognition, mostly because I hate attention and it makes me self-conscious. I blush profusely at compliments (If you can't tell, trust me I'm sweating). At media events I've attended, I hid behind someone taller than me to avoid being in the picture; in one, only the edge of my fro-at-the-time was visible. And I recently learned to just say "Thank you [period]" instead of explaining how old my outfit is or why it's unworthy of the compliment. Yeah, I have issues!

So today when the leader of the ministry I serve in at church gave me an "Outstanding Leader Award", I was completely gobsmacked and embarrassed, frankly. In fact, there was actually an award ceremony for it last weekend that I missed. When she'd sent the invitation/email about the ceremony last week, my only thought was, "That will be good for the other people in the ministry to go to. I hope they have fun!"

And although I would normally deeply frown upon drawing even more attention to kind things people think about me, I decided to share it. I'm not going to hide my face (well I did turn away) or shush it (well I did say "Are you serious? No way!" about 3 or 4 times). The inscription reads,

"Thank you for your exceptional servant leadership, excellent team spirit, and exemplary commitment to God and His people."

That is the ultimate compliment and I am so humbled. I want to shout, "I don't deserve it! Don't you realize I screw up on a regular basis???" But I will resist and say, "Thank you [period]" Just don't throw it back in my face when I do screw up! I'm probably screwing up right now! lol